Blockchain My Brain, Please!

I made it through four whole weeks at my new job. I know, you are supposed to give any new job three months before you feel comfortable, but I can’t wait that long to blog about the leap off the cliff I made into a wild new world that speaks a different language. I can’t hardly walk down the hall without hearing words like ecosystem, derisk, mod, bailment, value prop, and blockchain. Granted, I came from a world that spoke a foreign language of its own, but I’d forgotten how strange the language of any specialty is…computers, business, medicine…we all speak a different dialect at work, don’t we? It seems so normal when you are around it day in and day out, then …BAM… one day you change and it feels like you just stepped into a foreign film….with no helpful subtitles.

That’s why I’ve decided I need to blockchain my brain. The amount of new material and acronyms I’ve had to process over the last four weeks really needs to be kept in several thousand online Trish brains (blocks) that can be verified and retrieved. My one brain is just not sufficient. I mean, if there can be cryptocurrency flying around the internet, then why can’t I have cryptotrish flying around it, too.

Picture it. I am staring at my computer around 3:00 and my eyes are starting to glaze over while adding comments to a white paper or trying to compose an email and I can’t recall the right words…..hmmmm….. disruptive precision agriculture….hockey stick growth….monetizing with loss leader pricing….

[Enter the blockchain brain.]

Suddenly, I retreive the answer and am served up with a dozen choice synonyms to boot.

I guess the internet is already a brain trust far bigger and better than mine. But sometimes it is just too overwhelming to search the whole thing when what I really want to recall is in my own brain (I know it is in there somewhere) and I just can’t quite grab the right information in the moment. Instead, I wake up in the middle of the night screaming “valley of death” or “bleeding edge!” Scary as those phrases sound, thankfully, my entrepreneur husband isn’t even phased or worried by these nightmares. He just answers back mumbling in his sleep….”ramen profitability, baby.” Sigh. I guess I’ll give it another two months.

Blockchain: A blockchain is a digitized, decentralized, public ledger of all cryptocurrency transactions. Constantly growing as ‘completed’ blocks (the most recent transactions) are recorded and added to it in chronological order, it allows market participants to keep track of digital currency transactions without central recordkeeping. Each node (a computer connected to the network) gets a copy of the blockchain, which is downloaded automatically. —Investopedia 

Walking Away

It isn’t walking into an unknown future that’s scary. It’s the leaving.

There are few things harder than saying goodbye. Goodbye to people you love. Goodbye to a life you knew.  Last week I went to a funeral and watched my childhood friends and next-door neighbors say goodbye to their mom. Goodbyes are really, really hard.

Yesterday I made a difficult decision. I can safely say the hardest decision I’ve ever made. Now I have to say goodbye to my team. I must let go of work I’ve been doing for more than 25 years and embrace an unknown future. I can’t even imagine the words coming out of my mouth.  It isn’t the decision that is making my stomach do back flips.  I stand solidly behind my choice. No, the pit in my stomach comes every time I picture the farewell. It’s a sinking feeling I get when I chat with a teammate, a friend, who doesn’t know my internal struggle or can’t hear my heart screaming, “I don’t want to leave you!”  The goodbye will only sting them for a minute. I know my team will continue joyfully enjoying their work and each other — their hearts fully intact. It’s mine that will remain silently shattered.

Goodbye

It’s not the jump

that hurts,

nor the landing.

The fall exhilarates,

then the world solid

beneath your feet.

No, it’s not the ground

that hurts,

it’s the goodbye.

— 2/16/18 TC